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this is really scratching my itch for nostalgia right now.
(also, hi. i have yet another blog.)
i used LJ way back in the mid aughts when i was in middle school. the only friends i had on there were people i'd met online. it was the first space i had where i felt safe enough to be myself. it was where i rode out my weird american idol phase, fangirled over kpop artists, bitched about my rude family members, talked candidly about my crushes and depression and what i wanted my future to be. it was where i came out for the first time (it felt like such a big step then; i've since learned that the 'first' time is only the first of many times). i even outgrew the username i'd originally chosen and freakin' spent money to change it. also i'm pretty sure i mailed the money in because i didn't have a credit card when i was twelve/thirteen. WILD.
i eventually got paranoid people i knew irl would find it so i made all of my posts private. then when i was sixteen i decided i wanted a "clean slate" - made a new journal and deleted the old one, entries all the way back to 2004 and 2005 when i was a literal kid! if i could go back in time i'd smack some sense into my sixteen year old self. say some shit like "one day you'll be twenty-seven and looking for those posts."
and here we are.
so, idk what this is for really. another place for me to shout into the void?! somewhere public but not as public as like, tumblr, i guess. or maybe i'll just forget about it. we'll see.
although i am very excited to use LJ themes on here. and i'm probably going to make a ton of hannibal icons that i can use as userpics. haha
(also, hi. i have yet another blog.)
i used LJ way back in the mid aughts when i was in middle school. the only friends i had on there were people i'd met online. it was the first space i had where i felt safe enough to be myself. it was where i rode out my weird american idol phase, fangirled over kpop artists, bitched about my rude family members, talked candidly about my crushes and depression and what i wanted my future to be. it was where i came out for the first time (it felt like such a big step then; i've since learned that the 'first' time is only the first of many times). i even outgrew the username i'd originally chosen and freakin' spent money to change it. also i'm pretty sure i mailed the money in because i didn't have a credit card when i was twelve/thirteen. WILD.
i eventually got paranoid people i knew irl would find it so i made all of my posts private. then when i was sixteen i decided i wanted a "clean slate" - made a new journal and deleted the old one, entries all the way back to 2004 and 2005 when i was a literal kid! if i could go back in time i'd smack some sense into my sixteen year old self. say some shit like "one day you'll be twenty-seven and looking for those posts."
and here we are.
so, idk what this is for really. another place for me to shout into the void?! somewhere public but not as public as like, tumblr, i guess. or maybe i'll just forget about it. we'll see.
although i am very excited to use LJ themes on here. and i'm probably going to make a ton of hannibal icons that i can use as userpics. haha
